I Stumble and I Fall
“Spin around and fall down, do it again
You stumble and you fall
Yeah why don’t you ever learn
Spin around and fall down, do it again
Yeah, you stumble and you fall
I wonder if you will ever learn”
Everything to Everyone by Everclear
It’s fast approaching a year since I began my journey to create a webcomic, and my progress has been disappointing. More than eleven months later, I have yet to post art regularly, and I am plagued by poor time management and tons of self-doubt. I have posted a total of two drawn strips.
Not quite what I had in mind for having done this nearly a year now.
All I can do at this point is put that all behind me, learn from my mistakes, and press on. I feel defeated, but if I allow myself to feel completely defeated, then I’ll give up. Again. And I can’t let myself do that. Not this time. That’s been the story of my life: come up with a great idea or project, hit it hard and fast for a few weeks or a few months, then hang it up when the going gets tough. I’ve been doing that for nearly 39 years now, and it has to stop. Now.
I will see this thing to regular updates. It will suck at first. I will be OK with that. I will grow as I progress. I will do this because it’s what I need to do.
If I give up, I will have spent all this time and effort and worry and doubt and frustration for nothing. Chalk up another year to unrealized potential and throw it on top of the heaping pile of disappointment that I’ve built in my life.
No. I’m not going to let that happen.
